problems

December 4th, 2009

so im having trouble posting pictures thats the reason for the delay in post i have newer pics of art on myspace and facebook. :D

its been a while

June 8th, 2009

So with another year of my life coming to an end, it’s time for some serious reflection on the past year.  The age of 25 has been a very rough year for me.  Starting on the first day the destruction of my marriage which resulted in me leaving behind the last 4 1/2 years I spent with her.  That all had happened while I was on vacation back here, in El Paso.  Upon my arrival back to Midland I analyzed what I had to do to get out and back to El Paso.  It took me the rest of the year to get most of my debt paid off and in a position to move back.  Along the way a had developed a few relationships that were awesome, yet purposely short lived as I jumped from one to the other.  A couple of them had caught my eye, but inevitably that was just short lived, and me just being hopeful, and it ending in them just proving to me they didn’t deserve what I was willing to give.

That brings me to the month of December which turned out to be a little rough.  Spent many nights at random peoples houses and a few in my car.  I was no longer welcome where I was at, and that was that.  On top of that, the last 2 weeks of working were torture. All I could long for was the joy of never returning to the repetitive job that I had been doing the last 2 years, slaving away for the oil company.  The only thing that came of that job was some really great friendships that I wouldn’t trade for the world.  The last week of December was amazing though, and made up for the rest.  My newly acquired friend, Paul, talked me into going to Austin with him, and I basically had the most amazing week ever.  Visiting my sister, getting wasted, drug use, and sex just about sums it up.  I wouldn’t have wanted to celebrate new years any other way.

So after that week in Austin I moved back to El Paso, that week kick started me and I wasn’t about to stop.  Once back in El Paso I had every intention of busting my ass and getting my apprenticeship on its way by being at the shop everyday.  Unfortunately that’s not what happened.  I spent many nights along with Ryan, Justin, and Tom consuming excessive amounts of alcohol and going through girls like they were going out of style. During the the first 2 months no girl had a fair shot at me, I had my mind so set that no one was worth my while, and most got tossed to the side. I had gotten to a point where I couldn’t even build foundations to build friendships and I was becoming very unhappy with myself.

With that, it brings me to mid/late February. After a serious life lesson in curiosity, I had realized that the way I was acting and the person I was becoming was all wrong, and leading me down the wrong path.  I ended up falling into a depression the end of February. At the beginning of March I was really unable to cope with a few things.  I spent way too many nights venting to alcohol and doing some pretty stupid things.  After all of that I had basically decided to stop the games I was playing and start being the real person I had once been.   I’m really glad through all the bullshit I still have the friends I have, and they have helped me out so, so much.

I spent the later part of March and April content with not playing the bar games and the “let’s get wasted and go back to my place” bull shit.  I had decided to spend some time and actually try to build friendships instead of booty-calls.  I’m so glad I had finally decided to clean my shit up.  Everything with the shop is going great and I met an amazing girl in the process of it all.  Moving back to El Paso I thought, would fix all my problems, but it took me a while to realize it was a lot of myself that was the problem.  To all the people I hurt on the way; I’m sorry.  Just remember we all have our dark days, and I’m so glad mine were so short lived, and I never meant to hurt anyone.

So that brings me to now. I can say, “I couldn’t be any happier”. Lisa is fucking amazing, Unbreakable is exactly where I want to be, and I live with my best friend. Ryan has been there through so much it’s great be in the same house together.  My night job is awesome, working with the guys Austin, Mario, and Pollo, I always have a great time.   Without that job I would have failed a while ago. I’m soon shedding myself of my phone, as I no longer feel the need to waste my (very limited) income on one. So, I will probably lose contact with quite a few people. WIth that, I will be updating way more often and you can get a hold of me on myspace, anytime. To all my friends; I fucking love you, and you are all fucking amazing. Justin, Thommie, Lisa, Ryan; your ability to keep it “100 percent” real, gives me hope in humanity, that everyone isn’t as fake as I have come to think most people are, I love you guys.  I’m still amazed in one short year, my life has made so many 180’s.

P.S.

Kayla, I can’t wait to see you in July.

2 new pieces

March 8th, 2009

and a personal blog tomorrow morning or later on tonight

so life back in the EP

February 22nd, 2009

So i have neglected this blog way too much since arriving back in El Paso.  Its truly been great being back. I got a little off track and January was basically just filled with excessive drinking and not doing shit but being drunk.  Don’t get me wrong i loved parting with everyone and catching up on old times but that life style had definitely taken its toll on me.  Ryan and I had an awesome house warming party with an outrages amount of liquor and people fucking great times and by far one of the best nights of my life. Ever since the house party though i have really taken a break from that party life.  The time has come to start taking care of my art and get shit rolling.

So that brings me to February which by far has been one of the worst months emotionally for me it is been a fucking drag.  Things evolved and things have to end no matter how much i don’t want it to.  Its one of those things most will never know what happen, but has drastically changed me as a person.  I was heading down the path of becoming a very shitty person relationship wise and that has all been corrected.  All and all through all this heartache only good shall come from it or at least thats the plan.   Worst come to worst i always get a lot more art work done when I’m down the last week ive been very productive so a show may be coming up.

I am really hoping that march has better plan in mind for me because February has really kicked my ass.  I need to really work on different art, after this seriously I’m going to put all my normal characters on a rest and dive into stuff that’s totally out of my style.  I need to look into some gainful employment, my funds are slowly draining.  I’m for sure taking a break from trying to form a relationship with anyone at that moment it just wouldnt be fair to the other party at this time and probably for the next several months.

Well thats it for now but this blog will be updated alot more frequently now and i will have new pics of new art up by the end of the week.

Love you guys.

some new shoes

February 22nd, 2009

I did these pair of shoes for my friend alex’s wife for valentines day. She love lucky cats and 2 of her own so we decided to model a pair of shoes after her cats.

new start

December 28th, 2008

This begins a whole new chapter in my life and i must say im alot more nervous about whats gonna become of me over the next few years. Im leaving a job that i have pretty much secured my position and make very good money. Im confindent that im doing whats best for me and my life in the way of happiness and prusing a path that will leave me much more satisfied with what im doing with my life. I know i hate the midland midland odessa area but i have made some friends i will have for life here. You guys have really made the past 6 months of my life bearable. Ill miss you guys very much and hope we will see each other again. Theres so many of you that are just great and you guys are always welcome where i am at. Really theres to many of you to list but you know who you guys are and i love you.
So this past 2 years here has changed me profoundly and im really glad i stuck it through and got my life together. Im really glad i got to experience truck driving over the road and truck driving in the oil field i have a new found respect for what it takes to get everything we take for granted and its a side of things alot of people dont see and have no idea about. However i really hope to never have to return to that its killed me doing this so long when i have no passion or drive for what i do. Working mearly for a paycheck so lond and for so many hours is very draining on my heart.
The next week of my life will be a much needed break and my mind really hasnt wrapped around the fact that i dont have to go back to work and i have no time frames to worry about for a while. I have almost forgotten how to be carefree, but im really looking forward to getting used to it again. I cant wait to have all my el paso friends back in my life on a more regular basis when i get back from austin. The best part about everthing is i will have all the time i want to work on Art and be at the shop everyday.
For some reason i cant really think much else to write i think hasher is right Twitter ruins your ability to write blog entries. Basicly goodbye to midland/odessa i love you guys, come visit or i may be around eventually. El paso people i cant wait to see you guys and many good times are right around the corner.

And this blog will now be updated weekly if not more often :)

its been a while

October 20th, 2008

so yeah thinks have been pretty intense for me lately and im making it through ok. ive been painting as much as i can lately but work over extends my days more than i would like some times. Things are looking up for me though and really thats the most i could ask for right now. So wed is the big D day and its not as nerve racking as i thought im more conserned that the paperwork could be some issue since im doing it myself. hopefully all goes well. im not to worried about it. well i really dont have much more heres 4 new piece 2 small quickes and 2 larger ones

new shoes

September 13th, 2008

new painting

September 9th, 2008

newer shit

September 9th, 2008

if been super motivated working on lots of new shit check it